Well it’s finally 2009. I’m glad to leave 2008 behind. I do look back fondly on some of the events of 2008. It wasn’t an inspiring year like 2007 was, but the one stand out for me was the Nike Human Race 10k in Chicago. That was an awesome highlight for me and it really set the bar high for anything else I tried to accomplish last year. It was a rough year on the weight maintenance front. I have managed to gain back about 15 lbs of my 97 lbs lost. Very disappointing for me and really has been something I have been struggling with as of late. I don’t want to be a statistic and gain it all back and I am aware of the gain, so I guess that is a good thing. I’m trying to get back into exercising but for some reason my motivation has tanked and drive went along with it. It has become a daily struggle for me. I want to get back to that state of mind I was in while I was trying to lose the weight in 2006. It was all I wanted. It was my reason for being. I had a goal and I had to reach it. Now that I’m trying to lose these pounds AGAIN that drive isn’t there. I am aware of what I’m eating and trust me I’m not out eating Whoppers or milk shakes or anything but I’m not as disciplined as I was before. I should probably return to a Weight Watcher’s meeting but in my brain going back 15 lbs heavier makes me a failure. I know, I know… before anyone posts that I’m not a failure, I know that I have a lot to be proud of but I’m not proud at the moment. I’m very disappointed in myself and quiet frankly very unhappy. So now the work begins… In 2009 I’m trying to regain my motivation and my mental health. So my new goals have been set for the year.
- Lose weight gained back
- Complete half marathon in Toledo
- Find a fitness friend who help me stick to these goals
- Be happy and motivated again
Hopefully I can achieve them all. Happy New Year to All!
UPDATE: Here is a small ray of light I just stumbled across regarding the headphones ban. http://coachjoeenglish.wordpress.com/2009/01/01/rules-usatf-lifts-headphone-ban-for-most-road-races/